Heart Breakers

Tell me if you too have been through this..
So, you find yourself giving something a chance. You go along with it and you try to your hardest to love it and accept it. Yet no matter what, when truth comes out you realize you can't be doing this to yourself and you'll only hurt yourself and this other thing that your giving a chance to. So as much as your brain says "just  keep it up, you can fake it no big deal", your heart is screaming "this isn't you! be true and stop it now".
This ^^ is what i experienced today. As much as i tried to lie to myself, i realized my heart overpowers me. Now that "something" i gave a chance to, is no more.

Stress Stress...

No amount of words could express how stressed I have been these past few days! Not only is Finals week this coming week, yet my Water polo season is also coming to and end. My weather certainly doesn't help . At times it's freezing cold and raining, others, it's hot and dry. So wardrobe wise, I'm stressed as well.

I have these moments where i wish i could just escape all reality and lay on a sandy beach. How lovely would that be!

A bit of Hollywood :)

I went to Hollywood recently. It's not too far from where i live :) I took a trip down there to go see Wicked at the Pantages Theatre. As i was walking here are some of the pictures i took of the stars (:

It came in a feeling..

I wish to embrace my youth.
I that should mean to welcome death, then let it be.
For this short life that i am living won't always be so forgiving.
I smile to what's in front of me,
And hope to never cry.
If my life were to be taken, it wouldn't mean "goodbye".
I wish to enter His kingdom.
As much as i wish to live a long life.
I wish to feel his love,
As much as i wish you forever feel mine.
So if someday we part know I'll be waiting for you,
Where ever it may be that we restart.

Choices...

Have you ever thought about all the choices you've made in your life? I know I have tried to, yet every time i do i feel like there's too many. This is very true though, there are too many. I guess i just never really realized that until i took that time to step back and look at all that i have done. Even the small choices count! Recently i made a choice that for some reason, was very hard on me. See I've been playing Water polo since my freshman year in high school and in order to keep playing it i must do swim season too, which comes right after water polo. This year, i didn't have to do Water polo since all my P.E. credits were done... yet i decided to do it because of the love for the sport. Yet the one thing i do not like(as crazy as it sounds) is to swim!! Originally i wasn't going to do swim season my junior year. Now after a long talk with my coach and close teammates i have decided to do it once again. This may not look like a big deal and yes i may be over exaggerating a lot but to me, this choice changes a lot of things in my life. I guess I'll just have to find out what happens now.

First (of many) Cat Pic

So i must say, i have a little obsession with cats. Sadly, i seem to have very bad luck with them because the only two cats I've had in my life are no longer with me.

Yet here's a funny picture that i love!

A Look Around

So I take a look at other blogs and realize that there is so much out there! So many people filled with hopes, dreams, passions, it's all so incredible. To think that I'm only one of them!

As for my blog... I'm unsure of it's theme, just like I'm unsure of everything else. Then again, life is one big mix of themes. Wow, now I'm getting the feeling that I might be excessively posting from now on, no matter who reads it or who doesn't :)

I found YOU !

After looking through my much loved TeenVogue, I come across a page about a blogger. Now she might never know, but she inspired me to restart a blog and now here I am! :D To think that I could have simply skipped her page and never have started this... Glad i kept my eyes wide open ;)